Feeling remorse about my past

We still feel guilty. And incredibly angry, just for the world I feel. I'm still dreaming about crashing my car, though I've replaced the random tree I was just thinking of overnight with major landmarks. I don't want to hurt anyone, or even myself, simply make an assertion about how precisely f'd this world is. Anyway, I'm not going to do this, and gave my car keys to James a few minutes ago and i am unlikely to drive until I'm out of crisis.